Beginning Fight

I began to really train hard. I was told I was over doing it. How can I be overdoing it? I was finally moving and eating healthy? Brian informed me to ease up. He saw me hitting a brick wall. He and my body was saying ease up you haven't been active in many years. You must do these activities long term not instantly. I was having problems sleeping. I had to much energy. I didn't want to fail nor be fat anymore, in the back of my head I wanted those pounds to shred right off and the inches to drop. I wanted everyone to notice right away my progress. I went at it balls to the wall. I have since learned. With a small injury to my calf muscle I found myself limping out of the gym half way through my training secession. I cried all the way to the shower. Feeling let down, knowing this was gonna take some healing. I felt at that moment a failure. To Brian for going to strong, and to my body why did I let myself get this heavy to not be strong enough. But with weakness somehow I am strong. I told myself that this will only make me stronger not weaker. I am in for long term and not short term weight loss. If it takes me 5 years to take off 2 pounds I will still be active.... I just wont be a bikini model. I took two weeks off from training. I continued to eat healthy. When I went back to training I was and still am careful. I never want that feeling again. When you put yourself out to be monitored and encouraged you never want failure. I now know I need small steps, and small steps are better than no steps.